I still love you
no I don’t.
I’m so confused. why did this happen.
I want you to be happy. if this is what it takes then I’m okay with it. be happy. for me. please.
don’t you ever give up.
I kind of hate you for leaving me.
but I still love you.
I won’t look at you in person but I talk to you in my head
you’re a better listener this way.
maybe if I wasn’t so fucked up this wouldn’t have happened
no. it’s not my fault.
but it kind of is.
I hate this
I don’t know who I am without you.
why can’t things be like they were before
please come back to me. I need you. you need me.
we are so goddamn bad for each other it’s beautiful. I’m addicted to our heartbreak.
I went through our old messages. I cried because you promised to always be there. you lied.
you smiled at me in the hall today. i thought my chest was being ripped open
I’m glad you’re smiling though.
there comes a certain fucking point in time when you will grow up. I know you’re my sister but you fucking made mistakes too. You have zero right to go talk to someone elses mother and tell them that they aren’t a good parent. wendy allowed charlie to move in with us because thats what he wanted. He wanted the opportunities diane could provide. Im sorry your dumb ass couldn’t understand that when dianes hands were reached out trying to pick you up. you’re in a shelter with that baby because you couldn’t adapt because mary wants what mary wants. Thats not wendy’s fault. You’re 19 going on 20 grow the fuck up. you got yourself in this spot you can get yourself out if you really cared about lilliana. You would do everything in your fucking power to provide for that child. you knew going in that this is what would come of it. Im so fucking ashamed of you. I know this is all coming from steph but i thought you were smart enough to not let any of that get in your head. but you aren’t.